It’s here. My daughter’s last-ever first day of school. That thirteenth, and final first day. Her senior year has begun. She looks the part. She appears confident, fit, athletic, in control. A beautiful young woman.
It was twelve years ago that my husband and I worried over our little girl (and she was so little) as she boarded the bus (and the bus was so big) for Kindergarten. Thank goodness our area didn’t have all-day Kindergarten then. I wouldn’t have been ready. (See Moving up to Middle School, October 18, 2011.) Eleven more first days followed, and eleven more years. We checked off the major first-year milestones: elementary school, middle school, high school. But I don’t remember growing older.
My husband has been whistling “Sunrise, Sunset” from Fiddler on the Roof even more frequently than usual these days. I understand, and those unsettling lyrics rattle around in my head:
Sunrise sunset, sunrise, sunset!
Swiftly fly the years,
One season following another,
Laden with happiness and tears…
No school bus for our daughter, not since sophomore year. This tall young woman got in the car, waved happily, and drove away.
Is this the little girl I carried?
Wasn’t it yesterday when she was small?
Wonder where she’ll be this time next year?