London, Revisited

Arriving in London’s  St. Pancras station after a twenty-five year absence, the first of many changes that had overtaken the city since then began to wash over me like a wave.  In 1989, work on the Channel Tunnel, following decades of planning, discussion, and ongoing set-backs, was in its very early stages.  Back then it was still called the “Chunnel,” and its progress, or lack thereof, was daily tabloid fodder.  The media eagerly fanned the flames of unease about the possibility of a land link to the Continent opening up a deadly rabies pipeline.  Enormous, rambling St. Pancras had sat largely derelict.  With its brooding red-brick towers and aura of neglect, it could have been mistaken for a Victorian mental asylum.  It was gratifying to see how beautifully the station had been restored and updated to accommodate the Eurostar line.  Had it been in a U.S. city, it more likely would have met  the wrecking ball than renovation.

Emerging onto the streets of London, a less welcome transformation confronted me.  The classic, classy black cabs–those timeless Hackney carriages–where were they?  I knew they still existed, in a somewhat updated form, and in colors other than black.  But the streets outside the station swarmed with garish  purple and orange minivans.  We could have been in Cleveland.  We settled for one such vehicle to take us to our hotel on Grosvenor Square.  Oh well.

One thing that had not changed, however, was the near-anarchic state of London’s traffic, which tends to be particularly alarming upon first arriving.  Cars, motorcycles, bicycles and pedestrians are constantly darting aggressively from unexpected directions, especially at round-abouts.  About half the vehicles appear to be confused by the concept of left-side driving.  Our driver was frequently outraged at the ignorance and rudeness of others on the road.  Some things, then, never change.  In comparison, Paris’s streets were those of a sleepy backwater.

As we made our way  through the chaotic congestion, in sudden fits and stops, I caught a glimpse of the new British Library next door to St. Pancras.  When I left the U.K, it had been no more than a hazy, perhaps-some-day project.  Most of my daily dissertation research had taken place in the manuscript room of the old library, then part of the British Museum on Great Russell Street.  Less often, I worked under the vast grand dome of the historic main reading room.  The new facility, perhaps a model of sleek twenty-first century efficiency, struck me as lacking in charm.

But it didn’t matter. It’s highly unlikely that I’ll ever turn the brightly painted and gilded pages of a fourteenth-century Apocalypse again, in the new library or elsewhere.  I had abandoned my academic ties, let all those bridges quietly smolder away to ashes.  I’d come to the conclusion, as I was finishing my dissertation, that a career in college teaching wasn’t for me.  That was fortunate, since jobs in my field were extremely rare.  I have no regrets about the course my life has taken.  Do I?  No, I don’t.

But I do miss the chance to page through those amazing medieval books, written and illustrated by hand.  Their quirky images, typically more humorous than frightening, despite the accompanying text of Revelations: the dragons that resemble perky, pointy-eared dogs sitting for treats (in my mind, now, I see Kiko in every one), and the New Jerusalem descending from heaven, looking like a Gothic princess’s dream doll house.  I can point out some of the books to my daughter, although they’ll have to remain safely inside their hermetically sealed glass display cases.  See this one?  I studied it.  I had it in front of me for an entire week.  It was removed from display so I could examine it!  I think she’d be impressed.   Someday, I’ll show her.  But probably not on this trip.

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Another First Day

It’s my daughter’s first day of tenth grade.  My baby is a high school sophomore.  That would be hard to believe, if she didn’t look so grown up.  And if she weren’t regularly driving.  She got her learner’s permit at the end of June, and so far, she’s a cautious but not overly fearful driver.  She’s determined not to be like me, hesitant to drive on the “big roads,” which I define as anything with an on-ramp.

Only two more such “first days,” and then she should be off to college.  Now that is truly hard to believe.

As September rolls around, I get a bit nostalgic for the years when my daughter didn’t go back to school.  Or for those years when school meant only preschool, three mornings a week.  I like to recall crisp, sunny afternoons, when she and I had nothing more pressing to do than to wander the neighborhood in search of signs of fall.  We’d collect acorns, pine cones, and brightly colored leaves.  Some we used for decoration; others for crafts.  (See here.)  After our walk, we might spread an old quilt on the lawn and spend a couple of unhurried hours lazing there, talking, reading and snacking.

Back then, there were no hard-to-find school supplies to track down, no quandaries over which binder is better, no piles of tedious forms to complete and sign.  No back-to-school nights for H and me.  We’d already met the teachers.  We knew them.  And we had absolute confidence that if our daughter needed extra help with the curriculum, we were experts in every field of study:  we knew our ABCs, we knew how to count, and how to spell our daughter’s name.

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Afternoon on the lawn, September 2001.

This year, as D takes pre-calculus and chemistry, I’m glad I married someone whose intellectual strengths are my weaknesses, and vice versa.  Should our daughter need assistance in math and science, my husband will be on it.  I can advise on some aspects of history and English.  But we’ve learned to wait to be asked.  Both of us are very glad that we no longer have homework, and we have no interest in doing our daughter’s.

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Thinker with a sippy cup:  D in the fall of 2001.

What’s harder is not offering up certain nuggets of unsolicited advice on non-homework topics.  Sometimes we know we should keep quiet because we need to let D live her life.  Many situations are only made worse by our meddling in them.  Other times, we realize that by saying one thing, we might prompt D to do the opposite.  She’s not a rebel.  But she is a teenager.

 

From Paris To London on Eurostar

It’s Labor Day, a time when my family confronts our many unfinished projects of the summer.  No better time, then, than to resume new posts on Wild Trumpet Vine.  Some, like this one, will look back to last spring, while others will be more timely.  So now,  back to our leaving Paris for London in April.

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Getting to the train and on board was by far the most stressful segment of our trip. The night before, we’d asked the hotel concierge to arrange for a taxi to the Gare du Nord at 9 AM.  Our train was to depart shortly after 10.  When we trooped down with our bags in tow, the friendly concierge was surprised to see us.  The taxi was to arrive at 10 AM, just as we’d asked.   Uh oh.

The concierge called for expedited service.  A tense twenty five minutes ticked slowly by before we were on our way.

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The enormous Gare du Nord was more congested and confusing than I had ever seen it.  Lines for the Eurostar were snake-like and slow-moving. When at last we made it to the area leading to customs,  an attendant pointed us toward a counter to fill out a boarding card.  Did we each need to fill on out?  He wasn’t sure.  Time was short, so we completed one for the family, as I remember doing on overseas flights.  Although, oddly, come to think of it, we had received no boarding cards on our Air France flight.  Arriving in Paris, we had breezed through customs with barely a pause.  It was like sailing through the Easy Pass lane in a New Jersey toll plaza.

Further along, another attendant asked for our boarding cards.  And no.  We all needed one.  Didn’t we see that it said “Name” and “Passport Number”?  How can that apply to an entire family?  The unexpressed question being: Are you idiots?  Maybe.  But H and I both remembered that rather archaic wording on the cards at the airlines: To be completed by Head of Household, or something to that effect.  We rushed back to grapple with the boarding cards, again.  Of course, there was the typical pen problem.  Those anchored to the counter (on not-quite-long-enough chains) were running out of ink.  In search of working pens, I rummaged awkwardly through my purse, which was stuffed beyond full.  H stared at me in exasperation.  Why is he not expected to have instantaneous, magical access to some writing instrument, I wondered.   Perhaps because we were in such a rush, the requested  information seemed ridiculously detailed.  Address in London?  Are you kidding? Anyone have the hotel address?  We muddled through.

We were flustered and on edge as we approached the customs agent, who sat scowling fiercely in his little glass box.  Why, exactly, were we going to London?  What was the purpose of our trip, he asked ominously?  He grilled H and me first, then turned a laser focus on our daughter.  Apparently he expected her to cave and reveal that our trip had some vile, nefarious goal.  Sight-seeing?  Reeaally?   And what sights do you wish to see?   You want to compare London and Paris?  Indeed?  To what end?  At last the agent tired of the interrogation, and waved us on, still hostile but bored and dismissive.  With relief, we made our way down to the platform, where the train was, thankfully, still waiting.  It was due to depart in seven minutes.

Once on board the uncrowded train, a welcoming, quiet calm enveloped us.  Whew!  Only after we were settled did I look at my ticket and see, written there in bold print:  Arrive at least  30 minutes prior to departure for check-in.  We had completely forgotten that helpful suggestion.  Because we had printed our tickets at home, the need to allot time for check-in had escaped us.   Had we known how extremely close we were cutting it, we really would have been worried.

The journey from Paris Nord to London’s Saint Pancras was smooth, quick, and uneventful.  We were soon served a pleasant breakfast by polite, soft-spoken attendants.  In less than a half hour, we were gliding silently through the tunnel.  A half hour later,  we emerged into sunshine and the same gently rolling fields of brilliant gold that we had seen in France.  Rapeseed, I learned, grown for its oil.  An unfortunate name for something so pretty.  The entire trip took about two hours and fifteen minutes.  It was vastly quicker and more efficient than in the old days of train, boat and train, each segment prefaced by a long wait in a smoky departure lounge.

My family and I wouldn’t have considered adding London to our itinerary on this trip if it hadn’t been such a convenient train ride from Paris.  But I was glad I lived through those old days and had the memories to show for it.  Glad I had the chance, with my fellow middle-school aged friends, in 1975, to cross the Channel by slow ferry.  See European Vacation, ’75:  Crossing the Channel.   I had described that crossing in my travel journal as a highlight of the trip.  Had we traveled then on a sleek, fast train, there would have been less opportunity for adolescent adventure.  While the Eurostar served my family’s purpose perfectly on this recent trip, I’m happy it didn’t exist on my very first European vacation.

 

 

Wild Trumpet Vine, Replanting

Yes, it’s been over a month since my last new post. And no, I have not abandoned Wild Trumpet Vine.

Some readers may notice that the blog has a somewhat different appearance and format these days.  This is due to unfortunate and unforeseen circumstances, and it’s too soon to discuss them yet.  Wild Trumpet Vine has required rebuilding, or perhaps I should say replanting.  Some re-tilling and rejuvenating of the soil has also  been necessary. It’s sort of like a band of crazy squirrels has gone wild in the garden.  They didn’t destroy all my precious plants, but they uprooted many and rearranged them all.

Wild Trumpet Vine, of course, is known for its tenacity.  It’s hard to dig up, and once removed, it has a tendency to return.  I’m confident that it will be back in full, better and stronger than ever.  One by one, I’m reformatting and reinstalling archived posts.  There’s no simple way to restore all the old posts and their accompanying photos.  It requires tedious cutting and pasting.  Most of the entries, from September 2011 on, have reappeared, but some gaps still remain.  I haven’t quite got the hang of managing my new domain. There is the occasional post that reads like a single, never-ending paragraph. It’s still a mystery why some spaces between text lines “take” and others do not.

If you’ve commented since mid-July, I’m not ignoring you.  In its new format, the blog quickly attracted a couple thousand spam comments.  Nearly all these hawk cheap designer knock-offs and cut-rate hair care products, two topics with which Wild Trumpet Vine is most definitely not concerned.  I’ve still got quite a few such posts to work through, in order not to miss those of real value. To stop the constant stream of spam, my husband  installed a captcha feature.  Now, in order to comment,  you must first prove you’re a real person by answering a simple math question.  We opted against the squiggly, melted word captcha because I find them tricky to decipher.   Archived comments will begin appearing once I get all the old posts restored.  I’m lucky that H knows a thing or two about coding.  Without his help, WTV may have been a goner, and I would be in mourning.

If you subscribed to the blog in its previous incarnation, you’ll have to re-subscribe, I’m sorry to say.  A “subscribe to” feature will be installed soon.   I hope to see the return of all my loyal readers before long.

In the midst of all this re-digging and re-planting, new posts are on hold for a while longer.   Because I’d already fallen behind, I find this very frustrating.  Our spring break trip to Europe, so unusual for our family, dug up many memories and inspired numerous posts.  The end of school, and all the weeks of summer, save one, have now slipped by, absolutely without mention.  But I’ll get the vines transplanted, and they’ll flourish again.  Don’t abandon Wild Trumpet Vine.  I won’t!

Thanks for your patience, and thanks for reading!

 

Across the Channel

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Before we left for Paris, we had reached a family decision to take the Eurostar train to London instead of traveling further in France.   We’d compare two major European capitals.  It would be a great experience for our daughter.  My husband was interested, since he had spent little time in England.   But I wasn’t sure I was ready to return to London.  It had been twenty-five years.  I had waited too long.  So long that any return trip would always be too soon.

When I was last in England, I had felt very much at home.  A year of living in London, traveling regularly to Cambridge and Oxford and elsewhere throughout the UK had left me feeling like a local.  The next year, a month-long follow-up visit seemed like a return to the old home place.

But England was no longer home.  That priceless cache of experience I had accumulated piece by painstaking piece–all that familiarity, all that intimate knowledge of a place and its people–it had mostly vanished.  Staying away for two and half decades will do that.  Now, I’d be just another middle-aged tourist mother traipsing from site to site, attempting to decipher an unwieldy map.

The whirlwind of mixed-up memories that spun around me in the garden below my old Paris dorm room had been daunting enough.  I was afraid London would stir up a contrast even more uncomfortably extreme.  Could I face yet another collision of the current me with the student me from half a lifetime ago?  Of course I could face it.  But I doubted very seriously that I would enjoy it.

I understood with new clarity how my father must have felt when we stood on a certain medieval bridge in Germany.  As an eighteen-year old fresh out of high school, he’d been stationed in Regensburg with the U.S. Occupational Forces after World War II.  Before long he was seeing a beautiful German woman in her mid-twenties.  She’d lived in an apartment building on the other side of the bridge.  He’d become like one of the family, welcomed by her mother and her small daughter.  When his overseas service had been cut short following the sudden death of his father, he’d  never said a real goodbye to Anna-Marie.   He thought he’d return shortly.  He didn’t.

Sixty years later, he was in Regensburg again at last, accompanied by his wife, daughter and granddaughter.   Did he want to cross the Stone Bridge and see if anything remained of the old buildings he remembered?  No, he didn’t.  It was all too much.  Too much time past, too much change, internal and external, to wrap one’s head around.

A sixty-year wait for a return trip is certainly too long.  A lapse of twenty-five years wouldn’t be nearly as overwhelming, would it?

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A View from the Stone Bridge, Regensburg, April 2011

Rue Mouffetard-Area Street Art by Seth

As we wandered the Latin Quarter behind the Pantheon along the narrow streets of the rue Mouffetard area this past April, we were stopped by several delicately painted street art murals.  The three paintings include the same figure of a young boy wearing a pale blue and white striped hoodie, jeans and Converse sneakers.  This is street art at its playful, charming, arresting best.  Not only does it improve the blank walls it adorns, it prompts passers-by to pause, think, and look more closely. 
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An internet search after I returned home revealed these three murals to be the work of Julien Malland, who paints under the name “Seth.”  Also known as the “Globe Painter,” he has created many other works throughout Paris and all over the world.  The figure of the boy appears repeatedly, as does the pony-tail-wearing girl in the example below.  The artist often uses the wall surface as a unique element in the design.  In the painting above, the boy appears to be in the process of disappearing into the wall.  In another Paris mural, entitled “Painting the Rainbow,” the boy seems to lift up the wall like a canvas curtain in order to paint a circular rainbow on the floor below.  In other works, the wall surface plays the role of water, from which the boy and girl emerge as they prepare to launch a paper boat.

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Above, secrets are shared under cover of the roomy striped hoodie. 

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In this work, the boy appears to float in the water of the wall, holding his paper boat aloft. Some of Seth’s Paris works occupy entire sides of multiple-story buildings.

This artist’s appealing, whimsical creations remind us that Paris is, indeed, one rambling, open-air gallery in which art of every genre is free for those willing to take the time to look.   

Paris Grab Bag

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In the Tuileries, with the Louvre behind.

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Like so many tourists, our daughter finds she can walk on water
near I.M. Pei’s Louvre pyramid.

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The Grand Palais, an enormous exhibition hall on the Champs-Élysées,
was built for the World’s Fair, held in Paris in 1900.

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The interior of the glass-domed Grand Palais abounds with sinuous Art Nouveau ironwork.

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More Grand Palais elegance in iron and glass.

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The Grand Mosque of Paris, which dates from 1926.


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The Odeon Theatre, near the Luxembourg Gardens.
The present building dates from 1819.

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A typically grand Paris doorway.

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Interior view of the Pantheon.
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The Sorbonne.

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Produce vendors along the rue Mouffetard.
On weekday mornings, the long, narrow street is the ideal setting for a moveable feast.

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A pedestrian-only street, the rue du Pot-de-Fer, or Street of the Iron Pot.
Like rue Mouffetard, which it intersects, and several in the area, it
escaped demolition during Haussmann’s revisioning of Paris.  

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The staircase in our hotel.

A Sampler of Paris’s Great Churches

Like most historic cities, Paris is full of beautiful, architecturally and culturally significant churches.  Here are a few of my favorites. 

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The oldest church in the city is Saint-Germain-des-Prés, begun in the sixth century as part of a powerful abbey.  Little of the original building survives, and the current church, in the sturdy Romanesque style, dates primarily from the eleventh and twelfth centuries. 

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While the nave  frescoes date from a nineteenth-century renovation, the paint colors of the walls, columns and ceiling give a good idea of the original Romanesque appearance.  The church is a popular venue for concerts.  A gospel choir from Alabama was performing when we visited in 2002. 

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The Cathedral of Notre-Dame, in the heart of Paris on the Île de la Cité, is one of the world’s great monuments of Gothic art and architecture.  Construction began in 1163.  The western façade, towers and rose window were completed by 1250.

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The Cathedral was heavily damaged during the French Revolution.  The row of biblical kings between the portal and rose window, for example, were beheaded because they were mistakenly identified as kings of France.  The current heads are nineteenth century reproductions.  Many of the originals, discovered in the late 1970s during an excavation, are now on display at the nearby Cluny Museum of Medieval Art. 

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Interior of the nave, showing the classic Gothic elevation of arcade, triforium and clerestory.

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My favorite view of Notre-Dame, from the southeast, showing the eastern apse and its famous flying buttresses, the first of their kind.

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The mid-thirteenth-century Sainte-Chapelle, an example of Rayonnant Gothic architecture, was the royal chapel of Louis IX , also known as Saint Louis.  Built to house the king’s newly acquired collection of Passion relics, the church resembles an enlarged reliquary.  Today it’s surrounded by the gated and heavily secured Palace of Justice.

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The upper chapel is known for its extraordinary expanses of original stained glass.  Due to advances in Gothic building techniques, the stone framework of the wall is minimal.  Unlike many of the large Gothic cathedrals, which were constructed over centuries in fits and starts, the Sainte-Chapelle was completed in a quick five years.  The style of its stained glass, sculpture and architecture is therefore remarkably coherent. 

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  A smiling angel in the upper chapel.

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The lower chapel, with its brilliantly painted and gilded tracery,  is a lovely spot for small concerts.  During my Paris summer, we attended an unforgettable chamber concert of Vivaldi’s Four Seasons.

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Steps leading to the Basilica of Sacré-Coeur atop the hill of Montmartre,       the highest point in Paris.

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Sacré-Coeur, begun in 1875,  was built in the Byzantine-Romanesque style reminiscent of domed churches in the Dordogne area.  Dedicated to the Sacred Heart of Jesus, the church was funded by public subscription as an offering of penance after France’s defeat in the Franco-Prussian War. 

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In the crypt, a statue of Saint Denis, the patron saint of Paris.  Bishop of Paris in the third century, he died a martyr’s death by beheading atop Montmartre hill.  According to legend, he picked up his head and walked six miles, preaching all the way.  The early Gothic church of Saint-Denis marks the spot where he was said to have died. 

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A view from the dome, well worth the walk, unless one suffers from claustrophobia. The path up, not surprisingly, is along a very narrow, winding stone staircase.

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Columns of the dome, with city views behind.

Back to the Cité Universitaire, Part V (And Back to the Present)

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All the transparent life layers have flipped by in a whirring flash.  I’m back to the present, and it’s April 13, 2014.  But the past is incredibly close.  It circles around me like a bird immediately overhead; I hear the beating of its wings and feel the air they displace.  In the garden of the Cité Universitaire on the southern edge of Paris,  I feel as though I’ve just learned the resolution of a suspenseful film.  I don’t know the end of the story (thank goodness), but I’ve discovered the end of the middle, and it’s an immense relief.

Throughout my teens and twenties, whether I’d ever marry was an open question.  I knew I wanted marriage, but I wanted it with the right person.  I’ve never held to the notion that there’s one perfect match out there for each of us.  There are no perfect matches.  Probably, for most of us, we might come across several people over the course of a lifetime with whom we could forge a more or less happy union, depending upon circumstance and our commitment to perseverance.  But it’s a limited number, while the number of bad choices is huge.  And making that choice is a tricky business, as the divorce rate attests.

I bided my time for so long because over and over, I’d seen that Right One morph into a Never Mind.  Appearances are deceiving, as are first impressions.  In a recurring dream, heavy with doom, I found myself married to one of my many Mr. Wrongs.  They were all nice guys, but after a promising start, they turned out not to be right for me.  I didn’t want that dream to become a reality.  As I stand here with my husband, my husband of nearly nineteen years, it hits me like a revelation: I found a good one, and I think it’s gonna work out!  Whew!

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He’s my Mr. Right:  with H in front of the Maison Internationale at the Cité Universitaire.

Like many women, I’d worried that in postponing marriage, I might miss out on being a mother.  I knew I wanted a child some day.  Certainly one child.  Possibly two, if I got started early enough (although that seemed unlikely).  But not three or more.  I know my limits.  I had grown up a contented only child.  I saw no reason to crowd up the house with kids.  But I really wanted my shot at motherhood.  Would I get it?  The answer seems to be revealed anew:  Yes, yes, yes!  I’m here with my daughter, my fifteen year old daughter.  I got my girl!  The girl I’d always wanted.  While I had prayed for a healthy child, boy or girl, I’d secretly always wanted a daughter, with the hope that she and I would be close, just as my mother and I are.

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Me and my girl, my buddy, in the garden of the Cité.  My old balcony and its open door are visible above.

How glad I am that I went back with my family to my former Paris residence.  Given the opportunity, I will continue to return to such places supercharged with memory.  The swirl of emotions they stir up is not for the faint of heart, nor is the undeniable reality of time’s passage.  There’s no doubt about it–I’m quite a bit older.  Perhaps older than I’d ever imagined being at nineteen.  But in returning to this spot where I was so memorably youthful, I can still sense the essence of that youth, which seems to hang in the air like the smoke from fireworks on a hot July night.  I’ve changed, but I haven’t changed.  I think I’ve gained some wisdom over the years.  My ninety-four-year-old grandmother once remarked to me that she still didn’t feel truly old.  I’m starting to understand how she feels.

In going back, I came to see more clearly who I am and how I became that way.  And it has made me emphatically grateful for the loving family who went there with me, for the first time. 

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